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Killing Fields

August 27, 2008

Overhead the moon shone bring and orange, hanging low in the sky, its light washing over the countryside.  The air was cool and crisp in this late hour when even the creatures that come out at night had gone quiet, those passing of moments between night and morning when the world slept.  A thick morning fog hung like a suffocating gray pillow across the emerald grass which had run high and unkempt.  The scene was as still as as though a hand had reached down and painted the image, leaving it in place for others to see. 

Then the picturesque was broken by movement, a shift of the dirt, subtle at first, but becoming more violent with each passing moment.  Finally, the earth broke apart and pale pieces of wood ripped through the surface.  No, not wood, flesh, bones, fingers.  The wiggled and clawed, grasping and pulling, until more of the creatures broke the surface.  Tattered clothing adorned bodies, uniforms once nice, once pristine, but now stained by the very nature of what had become of their owners.  This eruption of soil and clawing of hands continued until well over a hundred bodies stood on across for each other, separated by a field of 50 yards. 

On one side the bodies stood in clothing the color of the earth itself, belts attached at their waists which held canteens, ammo cartridges, and pictures of the people they loved and left behind when they left home.  Some of them had the look of men who had seen years of life beyond their youth, but most were young men having not seen even 20 years of life.  On the other side stood men that were similar in appearance except that their uniforms were dark where the others brown, and a red and white symbol adorned their sleeves.  

Each group stared at the other for a moment, eyes open and staring, but not seeing.  Then with hasted movements the men all grabbed at their feet, pulling up instruments of wood and metal, weapons, guns.   The silence was broken then by the sharp explosion of the gun powder being ignited, the first shot being fired.  Growing louder, the noise became a crescendo of violence.  Bodies rushed at each other and though they did not talk, their scream of bullets and the clang of metal said as that there was to say.  Some soldiers took shots to the chest, some took bayonets to the throat or legs.  The soldiers fell, but moments later they were on their feet again, shooting and stabbing, fighting in their futile battle.

In the distance the first rays of sun began to appear, creeping across the land and through the tall grass.  Just as quickly as it started, the battle stopped.  The soldiers stopped fighting, they stood tall and still once more.  Then they began to fade from the view, their bodies turning translucent, and upon their faces, the faint sight of relief.  In a matter of moments they were gone, with no trace of there existence except for the slight scent of smoke that lingered in the air, mixing with the fog and morning dew.

“Does this always happen?” asked the young man, his tousled black hair blowing slightly in the breeze that had picked up. 

“Everyday,” came the somber response from the older man.  His skin was wrinkled and worn with the passage of many years.  “The first time I heard it, i nearly had a heart attack.  I thought the shells were coming down again.”

With bright blue eyes staring off into the distance at the site of the battle, the younger man simply nodded in response.

“We were just boys.  We had no buisness killing one another.  But it was an us or them situation.”  The older man continued to speak, his words soft with a sort of rambling tone, direct not to the man by his side, but rather just letting the words slip free to mingle with the mist.  He turned his head then to look at the man by his side, thinking how the man was really more of a boy, about the same age he was when he went off to the war. 

The younger man still was silent, nodding in response, but his eyes were fixated on where the scene had taken place. 

“Some of those faces i see are the faces of my friends.  I should have died there with them that day, i should have died fro my country.” The older man’s voice trailed off once more as he though back the events and how they had unfolded.  ”I think they want me to help them, but i dont know how and im too old anyway.”

Finally, the boy turned, his eyes alive with the thought of it all, a smile crept onto his face.  “Well, you were right to call me then.  I will make sure that rest is given to these lost souls.”

Reaching into his coat, the old man pulled out an envelope that had worn yellow with the passing of years.  The stamp on the outside was old enough to be a relic of its own, and the whole thing had the strange smell of something slightly acidic.  “Here is what you asked for.  It was all i could scrape together.”

Taking the envelope from the older man, the other peered inside at its conents, a large collection of currency, a torn photo of a group of men, a tarnished gold badge with the symbol of a metal helmet with crossed swords, and a red and white arm band bearing the swastika. 

“Very good.  This will do just fine.”  Without another word to the man, the boy tucked away the envelope and began stomping through the high grass towards the place where the battle had been.   What a fool, the boy thought. I will give him these spirits their rest, i will give them their vengeance.

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Time – Part 1 (fiction)

August 20, 2008

Time is our enemy.  It always has been.  When we are children, we are nieve and think that time will set us free, give us life, give us dreams.  But it doesnt.  Its an illusion cast over our eyes that we are unable to see clearly until we become adults.  Then we see the time we have waste, the time we have squandered.  Youth gone, death approaching.  Millions upon millions of dollars are invested in ways to help us beat time, prevent aging, give us back some of our youth, make us live longer.  But it cant be beat.  It is always there, always wearing down on us and the world around us.  It is cold and emotionless, caring not for love or sorrow. 

All of that has changed however. 

It changed for me when i realized one day that time is nothing more than just another illusion.  Time is a tool to be used, nothing more. 

Time no longer holds it’s deathly hand above my head.  No longer do I age, unless i want to, no longer do i pay lip service to the clock on the wall.  It is my tool.  I use it how I see fit. 

And now, i want to pass this knowledge on to you….

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And now for something completely different

August 20, 2008

In a discussion with my wife last night we talked about the law that basically states that if you are a participant in a crime where another person who you are committing the crime with commits murder, and you do nothing to stop that person, then you can be held just as accountable to that murder as the person who actually did the deed.

I rationalized that when you as a person choose to enter into illegal activities where you or your co-conspirititors wield potentially deadly weapons, you are making that concious choice with the knowledge that  those weapons could be used, whether with purpose or not.  Thoughts?

Also, on the subject of unusual laws still in place is that of Spousal Privilege, which basically says that a court may not permit one spouse to testify against the other concerning confidential communications made durning marriage.  The law carries the requirement that a third party was not present durning the conversation (as this makes it non-confidential) and that both parties intended that the conversation be confidential.  This rule is suspended in the case of divorce proceedings or child custody disputes, as well as in cases of a crime committed by one spouse against the other, or in the case of domestic abuse.  The rule may also be suspended where both spouses are joint participants in a crime.  The rule was based on the policy of encouraging spousal harmony and preventing people form having to condem or be condemed by thier spouses.  Ignorance is bliss i guess.

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In the valley of the shadow

August 8, 2008

In the still of the night, there was no light from the little village, nor any sound even those that came from the animals that came out at night.  They had already seen what was coming, and it was only the ignorance of the people that let them sleep so soundly.

BOOM

A massive crack of thunder split the air, and some of the people awoke from their dreams, pulled forth by the violent warning that accompanies a storm.  Most went back to sleep, but one young boy did not.  He tip toed from his bed to peer out the window, into the night.

BOOM

The sound came again, louder this time, angrier, though this time most ignored the sound, accepting the storm for what it was and content to slumber.  The boy however did not, he stared wide eyed out the window, unable to move or make a sound.  With that crashing boom there had been a bolt of light, and in that mere second he had seen something which had frozen him so.  His mind raced, telling him to pull away from the window and look no further, but his body refused to listen.

BOOM

The storm was drawing closer now and the force of the thunder was so loud that it caused some of the window’s to shake.  Some people rose from their beds and glanced quickly outside, though none stayed to linger as the boy had, and so with their curiosity sated, back to their beds the went.  And though sleep would not come with the noise, at least they were comforted to be in their beds.  Yet the boy stood still, silent and staring, his face growing with the terror that every crack of thunder and flash of light brought.

BOOM

Walls shook and some items fell to the floor with a crash, shattering into a thousand pieces.  Finally, the boy was able to wrench himself away and he began to scream with all his might, running from his house, yelling for everyone to run, to find shelter somewhere else, and that a storm was coming this night and it brought something wicked with it.  Some people ignored him, some wondered what was wrong with him, but none headed his words. 

BOOM

With tears down his face from the desperation and hopelessness he felt, he screamed and cried out as loud as he could.  But the storm was too close now, the sound of it drowned out any other.  And so, alone, the boy ran off into the night, away from the village, away from the people, away from the storm.

BOOM

Finally a few people came to the windows to look.  And when they did, they saw in that flash of light what the boy had seen.  They saw what he had been trying to warn them about.  They saw what was coming for them, and desperation set it.   However, it was too late.  The storm was upon them, each crash of thunder caused the ground to shake.  Bolts of light ripped into the houses setting them ablaze.  People scrambled about, lost in the chaos, lost in the fire and the smoke.  And the storm raged on.

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Pop goes my brother’s weasle

August 7, 2008

It was many years ago when I was just a wee lad.  My brother was a year and a half older than me, but it was at that time in life when a year and half made a significant difference of both body and mind.  None the less, we were in this life together and we share many things.  One of those was bath time.  This is a common occurrence for many young boys and so nothing was thought of the two of us sharing the space and the water of a common tub. 

Like many young boys we did not simply take bath’s but rather it was an experience in and of itself, one fraught with games and imagination, and of course our share of bath toys.  One of these such toys was a plastic boat that was made simply of two plastic pieces, a top and a bottom that stuck together to form the craft. 

The craft itself was a ingenious invention of marketing ingenuity, because the boat had originally been the holder of a burger and fries, courtesy of McDonald’s.  Now this was back during a time when the toys that were to be found in a happy meal were not the marketing for a movie or TV show, but rather a toy in and of itself.  The construction was solid and not only did the boat serve well as a holder of food, but also a plaything to be had once the eating was done.  But alas, i digress.

So there we were, just the two of us, in a sea of bubbles with our mighty plastic ships, and our imaginations taking us to places unknown and never to be seen again.  Our mother was there of course, but we were two good young lads and her attention was perhaps not as sharp as it should have been.  In all my imaginations and creative ideas, a thought sprung to mind on which I did not even stop to consider the consequences of. 

In my hands, the two halves of my plastic boat, and across from me, my brother and sometimes bully (as all big brothers are) in all of his god given naturalness, shielded from the elements and his little brother by nothing more than a few soapy suds.  It was then that I made my move, and to this day, I cant tell you why i made the decision or why he didn’t stop me, but with a quick SNAP! the deed was done.  Now attached to my brother’s tender loin was the plastic boat, clamped shut and no doubt squeezing very hard on the poor thing. 

Needless to say, my brother was less than pleased at this change of events and he let his displeasure be known through the screaming of decibels of which a blue whale would be proud.  I can not say now what thoughts were going through my head during this time, but i am sure it was equal measures of pleasure for my ingenious payback and fear that perhaps i had severed the poor little thing off.

In the end however, my brother was more or less alright, though perhaps a bit more tender for the experience.  As for me, I have a tale that has stayed with me through the years of how I, like David, slew the Goliath using ingenuity.

 

“See my brother’s web blog to see his side of this tale, at Bath Time ”

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Ideas for stories….

August 6, 2008

So i am conceptualizing this idea for a story about a post nuclear world, where people have returned to a much simpiler, with the rare exception of a few people who have been blessed with a vast intelligence and armed with….great theological and philoshophical books, by which they use to rule the populace…and the story would revolve around one such fellow who is traveling around trying to free the world, or perhaps just brand his own version of philosophy

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Waiting

August 6, 2008

The seconds creep by as I wait.  There is silence all around me, so loud that the sound of the gears in the wall clock sliding ring out in my ears with a crushing weight.  Outside it is dark still, so I know that it hasnt been that long.  Outside the sun hasnt risen yet, and that is the most important part.  Timing is everything.  So i wait.  How long am i supposed to wait?

She lies there before me, still and quiet.  The lines of her face softened in the dimmed light.  Emerald green eyes.  Lips of rose, made up to be so.  Just for this moment.  We have known each other for a short while, but in that time, we have loved.  We have had that sort of love that you only see in movies and people say doesnt exist in real life.  But we have it. 

As I wait, I remember our begining, the subtle nuances that started it all.  I remember my casual glances at her, watching her, catching her eyes in mine before she would quickly turn away.  I remember how we used to walk down the same steet, her several steps ahead and I behind, and again with her subtle glances over her shoulder and back at me.  I remember those so many nights spent looking through the glass, watching her move, and knowing she was doing it all just for me.  We didnt have to talk.  We didnt need to.

And now, now we had the chance to be together forever.  It was something I has researched carefully.  Something I had to make sure was done just right.  So i took the time, all the time that was needed.  Carefully piecing together the things that would be needed.  Selecting the date and time.  All was done in secrecy of course.  It wouldnt have done to have her know.  It would have ruined the moment. 

So i planned and I waited until the time was right, and then this morning, just mere minutes ago, I set my plan into action.  She was surprised of course.  Which was good.  I knew she appreciated the effort and time I has put into it.  She didnt have to say it.  It was something we both understood.

And now I wait.  Time slipping away.  How much longer now?  My hand rest still on the handle.  Flesh to wood.  Wood to metal.  Metal to flesh.  Just as it has to be.  Clank, clank, goes the clock.  She has the dress on that I picked out for her.  It is my favorite.  I put it on her myself.  She would appreciate the significance of it.  It was the dress she had the first time I saw her.  It was the same dress she had when i knew that we were to be together.  Reaching out, I wipe away a little of the crimson.  We cant do to have that dressed stained.

Soon the time will come and together we will share that wonderous moment that only a rare few know about, and none have ever experienced.  None but the two of us.  It take a deep love.  The love that we have. Her and I.  It takes a commitment to make sure eveyrthing is done just right. 

It is that special moment when the weight of the world is removed, when the spirit slips free and it allowed to fly.  And when it flies, so too will I.  We will fly together.  We will be together for all eternity.  So I wait. 

In the distance, the first few specks of light sneak out over the land.

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Gone forever

August 4, 2008

Whatever happened to those days of summer

When youth was still fresh and ripe

as were my hopes and dreams.

 

Whatever happened to those days bygone

When imagination was king

and reality was slain

 

Whatever happened to those days of youth

Running in fields and ditches

drunk on the enchantment of discovery

 

Whatever happened to those days of joy

of unbridaled happiness

of innocence and naivety

 

Gone forever

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Walking the road

July 25, 2008

As i walk along this long road i give pause for a moment, letting the cool breeze waif past me.  My feet are hot and sore, sweat drips down my brow, and my breathing is a little harder than before. My clothes are dusty and well worn, but my eyes are bright.

On the ground to my side is the shadow that has walked with me all this ways.  As i have traveled it has changed, sometimes growing darker as the sun beat down more, and sometimes less as the sun passed behind clouds. 

Behind me are my footprints in the dirt.  I know that the ones i see are fresh so the impression lasts, but as time goes on, the wind will erase most of these.  Sometimes though, my foot steps fall within the recesses of mud, and these i know will last, yet they too will eventually be wiped away.  It is the way of things.

I recall the things i have seen on this road i have walked.  Trees the color of crimson and stretching to the sky; wild flowers of many colors blooming before my eyes; rivers and streams as clear as crystal, twinkling in the sunlight. But there there have been other things too, dark things, thunderstorms in the distance, dry cracked earth that is so parched and without water that it looks like the world will crumble away; and creatures struggling to survive, only to be plucked up and carried away by some cruel predator.

In front of me, lies the road that i have still not walked, but which i will soon enough.  It is uncertain and sure to be fraught with many wonderful things, and many horrible things as well.  It would be easy enough to simply sit down here where I am and go no further, but even in doing that i know that i am not leaving things unchanged, i am simply changing them in a different way, and my path will come to its end regardless.

No, my path lies forward, so with a deep breath and a smile i place one foot in front of the other and start forward once more, nervous, anxious and excited to see what else this road has to offer.

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Growing up

July 25, 2008

I have done a lot of inner reflection of late, looking at my life past and present, who i was and who i am now.  It is interesting to do so because so often I tend to be only vaguely self aware.  Years ago i mused about the infamous “stuck on an island with only three items, what would they be” question.  Last night, as i layed on my trampoline and stared at the stars, I considered this question again.  My answered had mostly changed.  Which is to be expect of course, but it got me thinking of how growing up and getting older has changed my perspective on the world and myself.  Who we are today is not who we will be in 5 years.   I wonder then if perhaps at some age I will no longer go through this self discovery, or perhaps it will not be so distinct of a change.  I have grown and changed personally a lot in these last five years, and I wonder now what the next five will hold for me. All I can do is wait and see i suppose.

By the way, the three items are:

A IPOD (with solar power) and all my favorite songs on it

A picture of my family

An endless pad of paper and pencil

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